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Jordan and I had this cool idea while we were sitting at home on new years day that we would write about all that happened during the previous year..haha well we got through 2 months! I promised myself I was going to be better at blogging (especially since I dont keep a journal) but it sure is hard! School just started again and I am still working at Vivint. We did have a fun summer though! 

1. We went to Disneyland! We went with Jordans mom Amy and his sister Bri! It was SO much fun. Amy knows how to do Disneyland. It was really late and we decided to go on Splash Mountain. We obviously made Jordan sit in the front because it was cool and we didnt want to get wet. Only Jordan is heavier than all of us so we got really wet!! And Jordan was really scared..haha I cant stop laughing at this picture

2. Jordan went to Germany for 3 weeks with the Army. He got to go to lots of cool places but unfortunately I couldn't go with. It was a long 3 weeks without him! 

3. We had our 1 year Anniversary! Jordan was still in Germany for it but my mom came out to visit and we celebrated by having a girls night! Then when Jordan came home we celebrated by staying in a hotel in Park City for the 4th of July! It was a lot of fun. 

4. We got to go to home to California. I love spending time with the family.

February 2010

I kissed Elle! This actually happened the 31st of January- I remember because it was a week before her mom came out to visit, and her mom came out to visit the first weekend in February which was also the weekend of the Superbowl AND my drill for that month (definitely a busy week). Anyways, I kissed her. She couldn't escape it ;) and she couldn't deny that she liked it either..


Haha I was a little nervous to move out of the "friendship" zone and gave Jordan quite a difficult time. People were starting to ask if we were dating and my mom was coming out to visit and I wasn't sure how to introduce her to Jordan (I am a very private person and keep my feelings to myself so I hadn't told my mom that we had been hanging out so much. Jordan came over and played games with my family while he was home for Christmas but that was it). 


Yeah, she told me not to be affectionate with her around her Mom (or anybody else for that matter). It was a lot like a secret love-affair actually. We were definitely kissing a lot, but nobody knew about it ;) So, then her mom came into town and that first Friday we went to watch BYU Folk Dance team do some show that was pretty good and we had a great time. Her mom was totally awesome and way easy/interesting to talk to, so we hit it off right away. We went to McDonald's after the show to get drinks and chit-chat for like, an hour and a half. The next day I kicked it with them again when I got back from drill (even though I was exhausted) and then again on Sunday. I even made them dinner on Sunday, which Elle just told me now she doesn't remember, but her mom loved it! By the time her mom left on Superbowl-Sunday evening (the 7th) I knew she liked me a lot- of course ;) that was my plan..


I'm sorry I didn't remember your dinner. I do now :) February also is known for Valentines Day! It was a Sunday..we went to church and made pizzas with Kaitlin, Joslin and some friends. Jordan brought me a rose and a card. We also went to his sister Chelsea's dessert party and then spent some time hanging out at my apartment. It was also the night of our first fight. Also, Suki reached 5,000 miles :) 


Yes, I'll get to that in a minute. Back to when Elle's mom left- over that weekend I started to really notice my feelings for Elle growing at an accelerated rate. I started to feel like I loved her. As Elle was driving her mom to the airport I went to visit Chelsea in her apartment and we had a good, long, heartfelt discussion about life. She helped me realize that I loved Elle and that I could see myself marrying her. I helped her realize that going on a mission was a good idea and she should not let anything keep her from going. A monumental discussion any way you slice it.


SO, I realized on the evening of 7 February 2010 that I loved Elle Nicole Nielson.


I tried to keep it a secret until the 14th (Valentine's Day) but I couldn't keep it to myself for very long (I'm really not the best person at keeping secrets). On Tuesday Lost 6 premiered and we went to a premier party that my sister threw at her apartment. Then, on thursday we were listening to music and making out in my room and I realized there was no reason to keep me from telling her. I felt it; even if I didn't say it, it was still true. So I told her. She was happy, but didn't tell me that she loved me too, which was okay- I knew she needed some more time.


I didn't believe him at first! I really was shocked haha. 


Then, on Valentine's Day we went to a dessert party (again at Chelsea's apartment) and I gave her the rose as she mentioned previous. The next day, Monday the 15th, was some holiday so I didn't have school and I planned a really great day for us. We drove up into the canyon and visited a lot of the more scenic places in the canyon (a lot of them were places I had taken her to back in Sept 09 when she came out to visit). Then I took her to Jordanelle State Park, which was awesome :) Also, we went to Park City and had some good Mexican food and took pictures- it was fun! We went back to Jordanelle to have a nice long chat. It was there that she finally told me I had a chance with her..


After a month and a half of almost no answer I finally told him he had a pretty good chance! We had a lot of fun that day and I started to think that I loved him back :)


Yes, I had been asking her if she would ever open her heart up enough to give me a fair chance. I was asking her that even before she came out to Utah, but she never answered me. She just kept saying "I don't know."


Haha I was really good at not answering Jordan's questions and dancing around the topic of dating.


Yeah, she's definitely a good dancer ;) anyways, even on this awesome day she didn't really answer the question. She just told me I had a better chance than I thought. Very diplomatic of her, actually.


And we did have a fight. It was centered on this same topic of whether she would give me a fair chance or not. I didn't want to keep dating her, fall more in love with her, and then have her tell me that she wanted to see where things went with her missionary and just drop me. That's what would definitely happen if she didn't give me a fair chance and open her heart up to me. If she did give me a chance, I really felt like I would win her over :)


I realized I did love him though and told him soon after :) 


Yep, we were lying in my room listening to Snow Patrol and she told me. It was great :)


So, in conclusion, February was a short month consisting mostly of us falling in love with each other and being happy :) and a lot of parties.


Best Moment:


There are so many great memories from this month, but my favorite is when Elle finally told me she loved me too :) We were lying there on my bed just being close to each other and relaxing- listening to the album A Hundred Million Suns by Snow Patrol. I said, "I love you Elle" and she said "I love you" right back to me! A moment in time that I can remember exactly as it was because it was so special to me- I can go back in my mind and live it over again and be happy :)


Mine was obviously when Jordan told me he loved me :) it was completely unexpected and a wonderful surprise! Although, I did feel really bad that I didn't say it back, but I wanted to say it when I knew that I truly meant it! I love you so much Jordan! 

January 2010

New Year's Eve 2009 at 11:30 I was driving out to El Dorado Hills to go to a YSA Dance and to surprise Elle. I called her to see what she was up to (and to slyly make sure she was going to be there when I arrived) and got there right before midnight. I think she liked it, even though there really wasn't any way for me to tell... She was with friends and other boy and her response was understandably understated, even for her ;)


Jordan called and said to have my phone next to me at midnight so that he could call and wish me a happy new years!  I thought he was at his aunts house with his family and was very surprised and excited to see him walk into the dance :)


I was with my family previous to that, I left early so that Elle would be the first person I would see in 2010. And I wanted to kiss her too ;) but there were too many people around... And she probably wouldn't have let me. This I know for a fact because the night before we were watching a movie at her grandparents' house in Wilton and she told me that she moved "really slow" and that it would probably be a long time before she even let me hold her hand.


Haha I said I wouldn't kiss anyone unless I was in a relationship with them. I was interested in Jordan but we had been in different states for a while and I was still figuring him out :) so I made him work for it.


Yes, she did make me work for it... Understatement of the year. Anyways, she drove out to Utah with her dad shortly after that. When I got back out to Utah we started to hang out pretty much every day. I had class and basketball practice, but when I wasn't busy we would do stuff together: dinner, playing games, and watching Lost at my apartment (I was trying to help her experience the first 5 seasons before the final season started on tv). She spent a lot of time with her cousins and it was difficult to pry her away from them at first, but it got easier. I remember going to watch She's the Man with them and her and some boys at her cousin's apartment. It was okay. They kind of over-rate that movie ;)


First of all, I love that movie. Meanwhile, I spent most of my time waiting for Jordan to get out of class or hanging out with Kait and Jos. I didn't start school again until April and had a lot of free time on my hands. I looked for a job but became easily discouraged. We watched lots of Lost as Jordan mentioned and he even got up the courage to hold my hand. We went on a lot of drives and talked. Once he even called the BYU operator and asked the girl that answered for some ideas of questions to ask me :) Jordan had a lot of interesting things to talk about and I always enjoyed spending time with him.


So, the majority of the month of January consisted of Elle and I starting to spend increasing proportions of our day together. And a lot of the time we spent together was the Lost season 1-5 blitzkreig that I mentioned earlier. Also, we watched Marley and Me. For some reason that movie made me cry a lot... And yeah, I finally got up the courage to hold her hand. It was during one of our many Lost encounters. And it did take A LOT of courage because Elle is very guarded with her feelings and it was nearly impossible to tell how much she may have really liked me. I honestly felt like she was just saying "yes" to spending so much time with me because she was nice. No reason for me to think otherwise really. But I really, really liked her and I wanted to be in a relationship with her.


In fact, I remember telling her that the summer before she came out. I took her to the invisible city to have a "heart to heart" before I left back to BYU (this was after we went with Alexa and Shaunna to Big Spoon frozen yogurt and Elle dropped one of the big spoons on the ground, making quite the ruckus for which she was very embarrassed until Shaunna told her it was okay and not to worry). At the invisible city I told her that I wanted to date her more and would want to have a relationship if we were living in the same place (obviously not having me at BYU/her in Sacramento).


We are getting off the topic of January but thats ok. Even though Jordan said he wanted to be in a relationship I also knew that he lost interest in girls quickly and had never been in a relationship for longer than three months so I was sure that he would forget about me once he went back to BYU.


But I didn't ;) haha, proved you wrong there babe!              ... back to January...
It was the first month that we were together in Utah and we were definitely starting to build our relationship. I told the girls of the Maple Mountain High School basketball team that I was coaching that she was my girlfriend and brought her to one of the games so they could all see her and be proud of me. And so Elle would get to see me being cool. As the month went on, she finally started to see that I was pretty cool and started to want my body too :)


Best Memory:


I remember it was January 13th when we held hands for the first time! Haha, so much for being "slow" ;) I was really nervous, but I decided to just go for it.. and the rest is history!


My favorite memory is watching Lost together. I do not remember the date we first held hands haha but I do remember Jordan being nervous :)